I am changing.

I spent a lot of time just thinking of myself as a writer, gaining weight, and not walking very far.

I want to start walking 300 more steps than I did the day before every single day. My goal is to lose 2 pounds every single month for a few years.

That is going to be a challenging goal to maintain.

I am a writer but I want to start writing in a way that is more understandable to dubious readers. I want to write about more practical things people can do to make the world better and more livable for the future.

I have spent a lot of time and many episodes trying to find a way away from my current lifestyle, out of the town of Bristol, and into Masters programs or jobs that might even be possible but I have just now decided I want to live the rest of my life in Bristol just trying to make the city more sustainable and that is my new main career goal, even if no one ever pays me to do it.

I no longer want to try to leave here, I want to continue to invest in here, to network further in my community, increasing my involvements.

I feel strong clarity that all of these new decisions are what is right for me. I have had many past failed attempts, but I have determination and I know I will increase my walking 300 steps, improve my writing, and lose weight. I know I can plant more things and compost more, I know I can talk to my neighbors and try to encourage them that they actively care more about the Earth.

But the thing I am not sure of is will I be able to make the full impact I desire. I don’t know this because I don’t know how the world will end up being in 60 years. Will society be alive? Will we have transitioned our agricultural systems to regenerative farming, will there still be hope?