As the years go by, without working a job, drawing disability, no longer in school, I am more and more aware of time, free time, and really quite territorial of my free moments.

I am a creative person, a hopeful person, and not entirely unable, and sometimes I feel I could learn again to use my time in a different way, to work some vocation or other, a full or part time job. One of the big reasons I am not doing that really is that I am hooked on time. When I was called disabled, I fought the title tooth and nail, and wanted to get back to work.

It is hard to explain how I currently feel to most people. Hooked on time seems odd, especially to people who really have never had any free time, and actually there are so many people like that.

I do religiously believe in taking care of myself, though. So I'm holding tight to time.